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Wow. [03 Apr 2009|09:30pm] I can't believe livejournal still exists. i miss childhood already, and i just turned 21. 4 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

...and i hate what i've become [13 Aug 2007|01:39pm] i need to get a grip. "Replace The "I" With An "O"

long time no updateeeee. [20 Mar 2007|05:10pm] so it's been a good 3 1/2 months since i last updated this thing. i highly doubt anyones noticed except for a choice few who actually gain any sorce of pleasure from reading my writting, but no matter. basically lifes thrown a lot at me since my last update. the biggest and most important thing, however, is God and religion. in the past few months i've decided it to be in my best interest to devote (or re-devote) myself to God, and honestly life is a ton better with him in it rather than not. I've made a butt-load of new and interesting friends within my church, yet still maintain the awesome relationships i have outside of it. i met a girl, heather, whos currently in Paris, and like ANY girl whos EVER presented herself in my life, is as confusing as anything, but in the same breath, is someone more breath-taking than anyone i've met in an extremely long time. we'll see where that goes... my parents are most likely going to get divorced. at this point in my life, it just seems to be a matter of time. they've talked about it, and the situation will mostly look like us selling the house, and moving our seperate ways. we'll see where that goes... my car STILL sucks, but i've actually been doing a pretty decent job at saving money for a new one, which i'll probably get in about 2 months if i keep this up. i'm pretty excited about that. but...we'll see where that goes... school is going pretty well. the bi-weekly ride to kent campus kills my gas though...but hopefully it can open my eyes for the long run in seeing if advertising is what i really want to do with my life. we'll see where that goes... ALSO, i quit drinking for the most part. it gets tough at times, but i feel that i'm mentally strong enough to keep myself ontop of things. i just feel that with my family situation and in growing closer to God, i really need to just re-group and have a good balance in my life,and i feel most confident in doing so with a sober head on my shoulders. and yea...we'll see where that goes. SO, thats kind of a lot to take in, if you care that is, but life's going well. for me i look at everything as another step to get to my main goal in life. it feels good to have the confidence that with God on my side, no matter what, all of this will turn out for the best in the end, no matter if it takes a negative or positive turn in my eyes. i just know that no matter what happens, i'll be ok and that God puts me through certain situations for a reason. anyway, i hope all is well in your lifes...if i havent talked to you in a while, feel free to get in touch with me. i'm totally down to catch up. i probably won't end up updating for another 3 months...but it happens! take care. 3 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

anddddd... [26 Oct 2006|04:37am] everyone needs to chill out and quit acting like their on laguna beach. for serious. "Replace The "I" With An "O"

you probably don't give a fuck... [14 Sep 2006|11:21am] ...but i'm going to the Monday Night game against the Steelers and i'm totally painting my whole body teal. yeah...i'm pretttttty fucking stoked! 6 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

ernesto...you sly fellow youuuu. [30 Aug 2006|10:51pm] so when i moved out to the beach i started to just take walks by myself late at night...just to collect my thoughts and think without being disturbed. so, since i've moved back home, i thought..."okay, so you live in a regular neighborhood again...why stop now?" so i went on a walk and...i don't know, just something about the weather. the way the rain hit the ground, the chirping of locusts and frogs, the subtle lighting without the annoying loud thunder, it was just so tranquil. it was almost rain forest-esce...almost cleansing. i just feel so refreshed and clear headed. i don't know what it is, whether it's me getting older or something else, but i'm changing. and its for the better. 2 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

but yeah... [11 Jul 2006|01:10am] livejournal is dead as FUCK. 5 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

man... [01 Jul 2006|12:57am] ...I AM DRUNK! that is all. that caps lock worked out nicely! 1 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

amazing... [11 Jun 2006|01:09pm] Gone, Gone, Gone Lately you’ve been acting in a role that’s unbecoming Of the girl who taught me there was so much in this world worth living. The part that you’ve been playing has me dazed and missing you. But now you’re gone, gone, gone. The promise never harvested in fallow fields shall lie. In a shallow grave of stubble field and half-remembered lies. A burning heart deceived me and you really put me on, But now you’re gone, gone, gone. The memories are bittersweet; The taste you leave is still stuck in my mouth. I want to touch you, want to breathe you, Say, "Fuck you I don’t need you - get out...right now." We were strangers when we met And we were strangers when you left Into a shadow world of painted girls and marionettes. Used to pride myself on living a life without any regrets, But now that’s gone, gone, gone. How can such sweet kisses come from such a poison tongue? How can a bed of roses hurt so much to lie upon? It was the thorn beneath the flower that I wasn’t counting on. And now you’re gone, gone, gone. The memories are bittersweet; The taste you leave is still stuck in my mouth. I want to touch you, want to breathe you, Say, "Fuck you I don’t need you - get out...right now." The city’s not the same, But all the streets they know your name. They ask me all about you, but my answers pull up lame. I’m staggering in last night’s clothes and it’s starting to rain. And you are gone, gone, gone. If parted by a river that was running deep and wide, I’d build a boat to get to you or else I’d drink it dry. Could fill it back up right now as the tears fall from my eyes. And you are gone, gone, gone. The memories are bittersweet; The taste you leave is still stuck in my mouth. I want to touch you, want to breathe you, Say, "Fuck you I don’t need you - get out...right now." Babe if we should meet again way on down the road. Do me this one favor and pretend we never knowed. I’ll say that you remind me of a girl I knew so long ago, But now she’s gone, gone, gone. 2 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

GUINEA PIGSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!! [27 Apr 2006|04:43pm] sooo basically...two days ago heffa gave birth to two adorable little balls of shit. yup. i'm a daddy. doubled. in one day. two to four. boom. like that. SO BASICALLYYYY. I'm looking for someone who would like one of the babies. I'm keeping one, but the one i'm giving away is a long hair and is black with spots of brown and a little white. Heffa is my long hair adult, so i'm thinking this baby MIGHT be a girl, but don't quote me... ANYWAY, if anyone wants any information or is interested tell me whatsup. Thankssss!!! <3 p.s.- if i don't trust you/know you, you aren't getting it...so deal. 1 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

this is your chance to do something. [23 Jan 2006|02:16pm] 4 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

danggrlllllll. [13 Jan 2006|12:39pm] soooo. my hair is el gone-o. it peaced the fuck out. and i like my head shaved better. myspace.com/jasoneap for pictures!!! <3333 . 4 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

crumble. [06 Jan 2006|04:09pm] i've spent these past few months observing couples. their actions. their REactions. their rituals. their daily routiens. it's honestly been an experience. theres never a dull moment. in this big ass head i rock, there is never a blank second. and it slays me to know that a girl that i havent physically, mentally or emotionally been with in over 6 months is still "haunting" me. as a friend...she dosent understand what she's ment to me or what i've put on the line for her. i've sacrificed friendships. turmoil within my household. other possibly girlfriends. respect. my own trust. my job. upon other things... she just dosent respect...or understand maybe...that finding out that I as a person would pretty much die for her. giving up life. the most precious thing any man or woman could recieve. gone. for one other being. she dosent grasp the concept that i now feel betrayed. dooped. stupid. disrespected. amungst other adjectives. all of this...for a little girl. not even the woman of my dreams at this point in time...or a lover. a girl. who is simply a friend. do you understand? when your eyes scan this computer screen, does it pierce your brain? does it make sense? you mean the fucking world, moon, stars, sun and galaxy not to mention univerese to me...and with that being said, i've found myself falling even in a stand still. i'd give up anything i've ever been giving in 18 years...for a fragile little girl who dosent understand. who dosent trust me. who dosent love me the way i love her. i run on and on...and you hate when i do...but it all makes sense. the past 6 months i havent been single...i've just been on ignore. </3. 9 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

family issues...to say the least. [29 Dec 2005|02:48pm] family reigns before any girl or any friend. i think by stating this i'd have most of you agreeing with me? dont EVER turn your back on your family. EVER. they are all you'll fucking have once every other fuck is gone. this dude is 14 thinking he's a grown ass man. but i swear to God, i will not let this mother fuck rip apart this family anymore. FUCK I hate my brother so much right now. 5 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

[21 Dec 2005|10:28am] so i'm thinkin it's my birthday and i'm pretty excited about that. <3. 8 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

p.s.- im a creep [07 Dec 2005|12:57am] i need a hot bitch to cyber with. fuck. hahahaha. <333 . 4 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

[10 Nov 2005|04:51pm] we're playing at the pit tonight. so if youre not busy...come out and here us. duh. if you need info, call me...904-318-9227. <333333 . "Replace The "I" With An "O"

when youre gone...no one will cry. [02 Nov 2005|01:00pm] fucking goooo niggersssss. <3333 4 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

[28 Oct 2005|05:19pm] my feeble attempt at avoiding anymore possible drama. <3 . 2 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

[23 Oct 2005|12:34pm] jacksonville's new motto... "Jacksonville. So little to do that my buisness becomes your buisness." 8 L<3VE| "Replace The "I" With An "O"

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